1 year ago today :(

   I was sitting on the couch with the girls watching Diary of a wimpy kid,when I got the call that my pappy had passed away. He had been sick for a few weeks and had some colon problems, he was in a lot of pain so it was a relief that he had passed but that didn't make it any easier. It's times like that when I wish I didn't live so far away from my family. I didn't get to see him or tell him I LOVE YOU before he went with the LORD but I prayed for him every night and that the LORD would spare him the pain.

   My mom called me to tell me and I was here alone with the girls. My husband was out of town for the National Cav Comp so I had no choice but to stay together. I didn't even get to cry I think I was just in shock. The news threw me into a bad way. I got really depressed I didn't go anywhere or talk to anyone for a while. I would just replay things in my head memories of  him. Like when we were kids he would pay us a dollar when he seen us for a hug and a kiss.. I am not sure why this was that he paid for those things cause I would have given him unlimited hugs and kisses for free.We weren't incredibly close but I loved him dearly. This pic is the last pic we have of him and I hate it,he is so fragile looking and weak and well if you knew my pappy you would know that was not the way he was.
  I MISS YOU PAPPY IKE AND LOVE YOU EVEN MORE,I PRAY THAT GRANDMA WAS WAITING AT HEAVENS GATES FOR YOU WITH OPEN ARMS until we meet again.R.I.P.