Update on life here.

  So my husband and I found jobs pretty fast which was a blessing. We are very lucky I feel because we have a family and our jobs are weekend friendly which you need when you have young children. I work only part time but it will work out great when the girls get back to school. I take the girls to the park on my days off or mornings if I go in at like 11 we have fun that way. I want them to enjoy there summer. My husband on the other hand works full time and I tell ya he works his behind off. He goes in at 445am and some nights he doesn't get home until like 9pm. Seriously the Army had better hours. I miss him like crazy and I feel badly that he is the one working his behind off when he has injuries from the Military and has worked so hard in the past for us. I feel like I should repay the favor but I have little girls to raise.

  So far this summer we haven't done to much really. I do take the girls to the park a good bit. Kaidance has learned to ride a bike.all by herself. I am so proud :). Kellsiey is trying she will get there. We went to the Gap swimming and a boat ride. We have been to Philly 2 times so far and this week is fair week. Next week I plan on taking them to the bounce house place on my day off so they can bounce and have fun. We also have plans to go to a amusement park soon. Kaidance planned a camp fire for the 4th of July it was so cute. Pappy Steve went and got some wood off our neighbor Mike and he and BJ made a fire. we roasted marshmallows. and it was fun. we talked around the fire for hours and loved it....there will be many many more that was a great idea. Then tonight the girls put on a puppet show in there room after dinner.(I so wish I had the camera charged next time I will) Pappy Steve Nana Darlene and Jamie (neighbors that adopted the girls as there grandchildren)  came over it was super cute. I tell you those girls put a smile on my face every second of the day.Even when they are being bad and what not.

  We are in the process of getting the kitchen remodeled. We painted the room Sage green after wanting red or so we thought. It was so hard to pick a color. We ordered the cabinets and we are going to start hanging them on Saturday I can not wait until it is done and I can put my house back together I need to have everything in it's place.


  We went to see Grandma Della over this past weekend and that was not a good trip. BJ's dad told him that she fell again she is on meds and hospice. We went in expecting to see her in the day room like last time. Nope she wasn't there. We walked up the hall to go to her room,and to my surprise she has NOTHING in her room to trigger any memories. No pics or any family,nothing and that made me so very sad. She was in her bed at 2pm sleeping (grandma is the type of person that was always up early ready to go and was out and about) It was so hard to see her like that for me so BJ was crushed. She would start to cry in her sleep and then she would pray. She did wake up a little and when she did she knew who BJ was,(it's the sweetest thing ever). I know with Alzheimer's the mind comes and goes but she seems to know BJ. They sat there holding hands and talking. Then she would go back to sleep. We left for the night and then went back the next morning,she was in the same clothes that same position she was in and that broke my heart. I went and asked questions about if she ate anything since the night before because all she ate for dinner was 3 french Fry's. The nurses told me everything was fine she didn't wake up to eat breakfast but assured me that lunch was a better meal for her and she would be up. I wanted BJ to see her out in the day room eating and being Grandma. So I told the ppl there that we would be back at lunch. I thought that if BJ seen her up and about and he wouldn't be so sad. When we came at 1130 and the nurses and aids were just coming down the hall to get her up. She needed changed so badly,she cried in pain and screamed because she was stiff from being in the same position. She was in her wheel chair and she was out in the day room talking and loving on the girls. Then right before lunch they gave her meds again and BAM she was out again. They said oh she'll walk up and eat. No she didn't we tried to get their to wake up nothing. BJ was so upset that after sitting there for a hour he was ready to leave. He told her a little something in her ear and we all Kissed her and left. We hate that we live so far away from her and we hate to see her like that. I wish those ppl told us the truth I wish they would take better care of her. I wish she wasn't suffering like she is. She is so confused and upset by this all. I wish Alzheimer's never existed. it's a horrible disease. You have ppl come and see you and you don't know who they are then when you do know who they are you don't know where you are because it's not home. My husband is hurting so much because his Grandma was the only person he had growing up besides his Grandpa ( before he past) that showed him that he was loved unconditionally loved. Like I said before they were and still are best friends. She doesn't remember much of anything anymore but she does remember him and the girls and that is saying a lot. It's going to kill him when we don't know him anymore if it gets to that. She is also diabetic so that factored in with not eating and the whole time we were there we never seen them check her levels it just scares me. I don't want her to suffer I want her to be comfortable.


  So I talked to my Ashley today it was great catching up with her. I miss the Meads like crazy.

I love my Job :)

 

Grandmom's Boy

My husband has always loved his grandma so. He comes from a divorced family,his father and grandma live in Philly and he moved to Maryland when he was 2. He had a dad here in Maryland and  father in Philly. That's the best way I can put it. His father didn't have to much to do with him while he was growing up.

 So BJ (hubby) as a child would go to his grandma's every summer and sometimes for holidays. They did everything together went to the beach, went to the Showboat, shopping, or just hanging out.As he got older and after high school he joined the Army so he couldn't just go see her when he wanted to but he did call her. He called her every single Sunday even during deployments.

 I first got to meet her in 2004 at her house and she is a doll. Such a sweetheart full of love an would help you out in a heartbeat kinda lady. I just love her to death like as if she was my very own grandma ( I never got to meet mine). We went up after the birth of our children so she could meet her Great Granddaughters.Oh boy did she fall in love.We also went up when hubby was on R&R during his last deployment. Kaidance has only meet her 3 times in person but she talked to her on the phone all the time and remembers her Kellsiey on the other hand she doesn't so much.

So one Sunday we call and get a nurse saying grandma had fallen and she couldn't really get a round to well. Next time we called no answer,we thought the worst. Looking online for a hint of what might have happened to her if she was in the hospital or worse. I called around to hospitals and BJ called around to nursing homes. Finally he found her but he wasn't allowed to talk to her.So we called his father to find out what had happened. She just kept falling and started to lose her mind and she is diabetic so those all combined he felt it was best to have her in a safe facility.
BJ called him all the time to try and get to talk to her and to find out how she was and I must say at some points his father was not the nicest of ppl and that didn't bring out the nicest in me.

 So we told him that after we got back home to Maryland that we wanted to come see her,and so we did. We went up last weekend to see her. We meet up with his father and his girl friend and then walked into this place where she is. I was taken a back by the way she looked at first ( never seeing her without her hair done) so I can only imagine the look on BJ's face. He was so upset thinking she wouldn't remember him but she sure did.She also remembered the girls. She is still such a sweetheart,her mind is not at it's best but how could she forget her best friend.
It put a smile on my face to see him with her and her remember all the stuff they used to do and to just hear her voice. The girls did very well with the visit also grandma would say some things that didn't make sense or something completely random but they didn't question her at all. At one point she started to cry (which she does every time she sees BJ) this is also another reason we knew she remembered him.

We plan on making many more trips. She may not remember that we were there recently but she remembers him and the girls and that is all that matters.  He loves her with all that he is and he is trying to build a bond with his father praying that works out also.

from Amy wife to civilian life

So we moved back a few weeks ago and I must say it sure is a change. I kinda am having a hard time finding a routine. I will get there.

 So as soon as we got back to Maryland we had everything turn on in our home because our things we supposed to be here the next day,,FAIL, they got here like 5 days after but what can you do. We figured it would happen it is the Army way of life hurry up and wait so that's what we did. When our things finally did arrive it was horrible. We had to take the front door off and push our Living room furniture in. Hubby had to completely take out the stair railing(which was the one soul reason we bought the house) that I had fallen in love with 8 years ago in order to get our bed up stairs. My washer is currently sitting in my dining room because it is to big to go where is should( good thing we were remodeling that room anyways).I just can't wait to get money and start the remodel or should I say finish the remodel lol.  

We started the girls in school here the Monday after we got here and their teachers just love them. I always hear about how well they do and how cute they are and that my husband and myself are so blessed (trust me I already know that). Their last day is tomorrow and then it's summer vacation and I seriously can not wait. We have so much to do and learn. I will still be doing school work with them everyday and making sure they are reading but we are also going to play and have fun.

After getting settled hubby and I started a mad search for jobs and with luck we found them. Hubby got hired back on with coke and starts very soon. I was just going to go back to Sheetz and do what I have always done(adding that I wasn't trilled about it) but I applied for a teller position at a bank and go a call and I start there very soon as well. It is just part time for now which is what I wanted because someone needs to be with the girls in the afternoons and evenings so it works out great for our family for now.

I love being back home,I can't lie thought I do miss somethings about Kansas. From January 3rd I had a daily routine and stuck with it losing 28lbs before we came back. Since we have been back I have gain like 3lbs back and I am so not liking that. It is no ones fault but mine I need to get a grip on it though because I did NOT work that hard to just quit and give up. I will find a new routine. I love having family around. We have had a few get together here at our house in which I cooked and hung out and I love it. I cant wait for our home to be all done and we can have everyone over maybe since we didn't have a housewarming party we will have a welcome home remodeled party or something. I think that would be fun.

 I miss my Ashley but she isn't in Kansas anymore so that makes me a little better at not missing Kansas so much. The girls are all doing well. Kaidance gets to talk to Madison on Saturdays and Kellsiey calls Trinity sometimes. I still have to get a headphone skype capable for our computer. So we can see each other. I have talked to my Bestie Jess on the phone like all day (just like old times) lol that girl and I could be on the phone for 24 hours strait and not have a moment of silence. I haven't seen her yet so this is a must do very very soon.

 

 

Life is so crazy right now

So last I was on here was in January. Well since then my weight lose and life style change has improved.I have lost a total of 23lbs to date,I am kinda proud of myself. I still workout everyday and I really try to eat right but the stress of this crazy life is getting to me a little. See it's just about the end of April and that means big changes.

   We are leaving the Army way of life to become civilans again. This is stressful because #1 we have to find jobs as soon as we get home. #2 we are going to miss our friends when we leave and #3 my baby girls are going to be heartbroken.

 I fear for the pain my girls are going to endore. I know they are young and thinking back I dont really remember any of my friends until about 2nd grade but I know my Kaidance will always remember her best friend Madison. Kaidance doesnt forget anything. I have been trying to let my girls spend as much time with there friends as possible and I am not sure that is the right thing to do. I know that I tend to pull away when I know something is gonna hurt and I was just going to keep them distant but I thought they would be better off having fun and making more memories.

  I know that in leaving here I am going to be sad also I mean this was our lives for the last 5 years and we have made so many memories in Kansas and a few really good friends. I also know that we are going back to family and friends and that things will turn out just fine,but I just dont want my babies to be hurt. Kaidance (and the tears start rolling down my face now) has already cried saying she is never going to get to see Maddy again/I hope that isn't true I pray we find good jobs and that we can arrange trips and stuff like that with each other.

  I just wish we could have it all for them but I know all to well life isn't always beautiful and hard times are sure to come.

2012

  So this year I set that I was going to have a life style change and I have to keep it. I only have the use of the free gym for a few more months. I have been on a roll since jan 3rd and I have lost 6lbs so far I think thats really good. I go to the gym everyday for a hour and I track what I eat. The only problem is that I dont eat enough calories a day but I am trying. We leave here at the end of april so I will keep this updated every so often if yuo care to see how I am doing.

Thanksgiving and Christmas

 So a few days before Thanksgiving I was online and seen that one of our best friends from back home,her nephew had just been stationed at the same post as us. I got in contact with him and seen if he wanted to have dinner with us. He said yes, we also had Ashley and the kids over...Michael wasn't back yet from deployment so I didn't want her to be alone. We had a great time together and my hubby made the best Turkey ever. It was very very yummy/



Christmas
  Christmas was another great holiday,it was just us this year but it was great. I love watching the girls open their gifts and seeing the smile on there faces. The are such good girl. I got great gifts but my fav has to be my new proposal from my hubby and my new ring. I just love it. We spent the day playing games and watching movies and just enjoying each other it was really great.


New years
  Well my hubby and I are like a old married couple and always have been. I think out of the 8 years we have been together we only stayed up and celebrated once. We put the girls to bed and then we watched a movie. We were awake when the ball dropped we kissed and then went to bed.