So last I was on here was in January. Well since then my weight lose and life style change has improved.I have lost a total of 23lbs to date,I am kinda proud of myself. I still workout everyday and I really try to eat right but the stress of this crazy life is getting to me a little. See it's just about the end of April and that means big changes.
We are leaving the Army way of life to become civilans again. This is stressful because #1 we have to find jobs as soon as we get home. #2 we are going to miss our friends when we leave and #3 my baby girls are going to be heartbroken.
I fear for the pain my girls are going to endore. I know they are young and thinking back I dont really remember any of my friends until about 2nd grade but I know my Kaidance will always remember her best friend Madison. Kaidance doesnt forget anything. I have been trying to let my girls spend as much time with there friends as possible and I am not sure that is the right thing to do. I know that I tend to pull away when I know something is gonna hurt and I was just going to keep them distant but I thought they would be better off having fun and making more memories.
I know that in leaving here I am going to be sad also I mean this was our lives for the last 5 years and we have made so many memories in Kansas and a few really good friends. I also know that we are going back to family and friends and that things will turn out just fine,but I just dont want my babies to be hurt. Kaidance (and the tears start rolling down my face now) has already cried saying she is never going to get to see Maddy again/I hope that isn't true I pray we find good jobs and that we can arrange trips and stuff like that with each other.
I just wish we could have it all for them but I know all to well life isn't always beautiful and hard times are sure to come.
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