Listen to Beeman

  This is my uncle Ray,he went with the Lord last year on this very day. I have so many fond memories of him. He always called me his #2 girlfriend,lol (not in a gross way) we always used to talk and get along. He was such a smart and well lived person. He didn't sugar coat anything,he'd tell you just how it was and he was a sweetheart also. I remember he used to babysit my sisters and I when my parents worked. He rolled his own cigs at times and if not he smoked pall mall non filter. I remember him building a bench with us one summer. He would pay me and my friends to put his drinks in the freezer so they would be nice and cold. I remember him walking around after a great night with a wash cloth on his head in the morning. I remember talking coins with him before my 4th grade field trip to Old Bedford Village. I remember making beef and barley stew with him.. He would always make things and leave it on our porch for us if we weren't home. His chili was amazing,he made pepperoni spaghetti,it was yummy. I remember if I ran my words together like if I said come'mer.. He would say no it's come here,lol. He told me I was a great pen pal and he was always proud of me of my grades and of all I did in my life (which isn't much ). He was proud that I married a soldier and said my little girls were beautiful. I remember happy times with him,sad time when I would see him cry and he would say "DON'T FEEL BAD FOR ME, I DON'T NEED ANY ONES PITTY". I loved the way he would stick up his thumb and say Listen to Beeman and the click him tongue to the roof of him mouth.

  I didn't get to see him before he went but I knew he was sick. I tried to write him and I called the VA hospital to talk to him but he was released. I wish I could have talked to him in person and I wish I would have gotten to see him just one more time. My cousin did tell him that I loved him for me before he past so I know he knew I was thinking of him and he said he loved me also.... I hate that on this earth we lose the people closest to us but I love that in heaven we get to spend eternity with them..I love you and will always Listen to BEEMAN...

Mr.& Mrs.Colberg happy 6th Anniversary

    When I started dating my now husband 8 years ago I knew he was "THE ONE" right off the bat. We had known each other from the time we were 11 years old. We went to high school together hung out with the same people and pretty much always were together. After high school we went our different ways, he went into the military and I stayed home working and trying to get by. He was stationed at Fort Hood Texas and we didn't talk for a very long time.

  In 2002 he found out he was deploying overseas to fight " Operation Iraqi freedom",he got to come home for leave right before shipped out. Our whole high school gang all got together and it was like old times. We still didn't know what was going on because he wasn't allowed to say anything. I remember him being so much more grown up,mature,caring and def not the little kid that left two year prior. It was in December at Christmas time that he came in and it was snowing. He had to drive all the way back to Texas and I was worried about him. I gave him a big hug told him to take it easy and that I loved him and to call when he got back to base...still just friends.


  When he got back he called and then he broke the news... OMG really you are going to war :(. I was so scared yes we were just friends but I love all my friends and care a great deal what goes on with them. I was at work the day he shipped out and he called my right before he got on the boat. He went over with the supplies and trucks so he went before his unit did. I remember telling him to take care be safe and the I loved him,meanwhile tears ran down my face.. This was my biggest fear what he said he want to join back in high school. My boss was at work that day and looked at me funny because I was taking a personal call and crying..I explained and they were ok..

  When he got overseas 28 days later he called and I got his address, I felt that even though we were just friends but like best friends I needed to write to him to let him know I supported him and cared about him and LOVED him. We wrote back and forth and talked on the phone lots. One day I wrote him a personal letter telling him that I love him really LOVE him and wanted to be with him and have liked him more then friends for a long time.

  I wasn't sure how he was going to take that letter because you see I dated his best friend in high school...So I was so scared to hear his reaction. He wrote back saying that before his friend and I got together back then that he wanted to ask me out,and that when he came home early 2002 he wanted to ask me but I was seeing someone else so he didn't. Well that was that when he got back stateside and got his leave he came home and we have been together ever since.


  We had to spend 8 more months apart and another deployment,but when his contract was up he came back to me. We bought a house, got married on this very day in 2005, had two beautiful girls together,joined the military again went through another deployment and now planning out life outside the Army.. We have had our share of dark hours but our love has always pulled us through.

 

Happy Anniversary Baby,I LOVE YOU!!!!

(: PuMpKiN pAtCh :)

   Today the girls Girl Scout Troop went to the pumpkin patch. It was a lot of fun they got to do so much.

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 Kellsiey and a baby cow @ the petting zoo.

 Kaidance trying to feed the chickens or hens or whatever those are.

 Kaidance in a huge John Deere tractor.

 Kellsiey in the John Deere and she got up there and down all by herself.

 Kaidance shooting a potatoe out of that gun.

 Kellsiey shooting her potatoe.

 The pumpkins were all kind of small,we found some on the bigger side and they were still green oh well they will work for what we need. Kellsiey said her pumpkin was really big and heavy.

 Kaidance finally found one,only took like forever. I think she must have looked at every single pumpkin in the patch and finally decided on this one.

. A picture with my girls,we are missing some aren't we....yep the hubby but well see today is Sunday and like we could pull him away from a steelers game,I wasn't even going to try,lol... Had a great mommy daughter kind of day,so it all worked out.

Time to get for real

 So I have been doing good with my getting healthier bit.I walk all the time, go to the gym and try really try to eat lighter.. I never crave sweets I love savory things better....until....I diet. ugh and it makes me so mad but I got some apple rice cake things that kind of do the trick.


   I have been saying FOREVER that I want to lose weight.I actually did it once. After high school and after me and my boyfriend at the time broke up I lost like 30 lbs,only thing is...I didn't see it. I think I have a distorted body image of myself. I mean ppl told me all the time I looked great and I had to buy all smaller clothes but I still didn't see it.I just walked a lot and drank only water.. I would force water (seriously drank it none stop all day) but it kept me full. I also watched what I ate and didn't eat after 6pm.

   Then I met a friend and started hanging out at night and that lead to eating at night and I gained like 8 lbs back and he and his family (small skinny ppl)  are the only ones that still said I was over weight but maybe that's because they didn't know me before,anyways.

  Then I got with my husband (then just boyfriend girlfriend) in Sept of 2003,I was still in Maryland working and well that's just about it and he was in Texas finishing up his contract with the Army. He flew me to Texas the day after my birthday and I was 20 lbs heavier,only still I couldn't tell.. My clothes all still fit and everything... I have always thought of myself as overweight,,,so much so that in high school I developed and eating disorder. I really don't know why I have always thought of myself this was...maybe because I am overweight......but I am the smallest person in my family and they always called me small,but at school I was considered chubby.It was all very confusing I guess.
 
   Anyways so my poor hubby has had to listen to me for years say that I am fat and that I need to lose weight.I ask him why he let me get this way and being a good hubby he tells me I am not fat,wish I could believe that. When we are out at the mall or something and I see a girl walk by I always ask "does my body look like hers" He always says no,ugh So I don't know what I look like.

   We are only in the Army for like 7 more months and after that I will not have access to a gym for free so I am trying to get to where I want to be before that happens. I don't want to nor will I pay for a gym membership. I feel that is taken money from my children... ( another problem for me.... I NEVER put myself first or think I need anything). So I am gonna bust my butt and get for really this time it's my only chance. Wonder if I will be able to do it...(crossing my fingers) I SURE HOPE SO.

Fall Photos

   This morning Ashley ( kansas BFF) called and said " hey we should get the kids dressed all cute and take pics on main post ". It being a Sunday and me knowing the hubby would be watching football all day long said sounds great to me.

   Ashley dressed Madison and Payton up in really cute Halloween like outfits.

  My girls dont have anything Halloween like so I kind of dressed them fall like.

  We took a ton of pics and had a great time doing so.I can't wait until the leaves here start to change color and get more beautiful pictures of the girls with the Autumn background.

Ash and I always have such a great time together and our kids get along great and act like siblings. When May gets here and we ( the Colberg's) get out of the Army and move back to Maryland I am going to miss them so much..

Crafty

  I woke up this morning in a crafty clean kinda mood,so the girls and I went out to the Dollar Tree and got some supplies and then to wal mart to get the rest.We came home and started on them right away.. We make jack-o-lantern candle holders that you can use inside and over and over.

I think they turned out really cute and they were super easy to do and no much of a mess at all. I think we might do these for all holidays and season. They are not costly at all just a few dollars. Then I made dinner and cleaned the house. Tomorrow I plan on cleaning the mess or my daughters room once again.

I didn't include my husband in this post because he just had foot surgery on Friday so he is stuck in bed,but we showed him what we made and he like them also.

1 year ago today :(

   I was sitting on the couch with the girls watching Diary of a wimpy kid,when I got the call that my pappy had passed away. He had been sick for a few weeks and had some colon problems, he was in a lot of pain so it was a relief that he had passed but that didn't make it any easier. It's times like that when I wish I didn't live so far away from my family. I didn't get to see him or tell him I LOVE YOU before he went with the LORD but I prayed for him every night and that the LORD would spare him the pain.

   My mom called me to tell me and I was here alone with the girls. My husband was out of town for the National Cav Comp so I had no choice but to stay together. I didn't even get to cry I think I was just in shock. The news threw me into a bad way. I got really depressed I didn't go anywhere or talk to anyone for a while. I would just replay things in my head memories of  him. Like when we were kids he would pay us a dollar when he seen us for a hug and a kiss.. I am not sure why this was that he paid for those things cause I would have given him unlimited hugs and kisses for free.We weren't incredibly close but I loved him dearly. This pic is the last pic we have of him and I hate it,he is so fragile looking and weak and well if you knew my pappy you would know that was not the way he was.
  I MISS YOU PAPPY IKE AND LOVE YOU EVEN MORE,I PRAY THAT GRANDMA WAS WAITING AT HEAVENS GATES FOR YOU WITH OPEN ARMS until we meet again.R.I.P.

My first post

So I have been thinking about starting a blog for a while and well I guess I have decided to go ahead. I guess I will start with a recap of life and where I am right now.
 
     I am a 29 year old mother of two very busy little girls. My daughters names are Kaidance and Kellsiey, they are 6 & 5 years old. My husband and I will be celebrating our 6 wedding anniversary on October 22,we have been together for 8 years now but we have known each other since we were 11. We are from Maryland but currently live in Kansas,my husband is a US Soldier so that is what brings us here.I was a very sheltered person and had never lived anywhere but the house I was brought home from the hospital to until BJ (my husband) and myself bought our house so packing up and moving was very hard for me. I have adjusted well though and realized that my family is now my husband and daughters and where ever we are together is home for me. However we will be moving back to Maryland one day.

   I just recently got a job and I will be starting on Monday,I will be working at the school my daughters attend so that should be kinda cool. I am making myself get into shape we only have a little more time in the army and I want to make the most of the free gym,because back home I wont be able to go to the gym for free or at all because that is not really a need kinda thing so I have some goal set and I hope I can meet them.

   Once I start work I want to get into a routine I think it will go like this

  Wake up at 6am do 30 min cardo p90x style
  get the girls up at 7am feed them and get them ready for school
  eat a light breakfast
  After I drop them off go to the gym for an hour
  Come home and shower
  Eat a light lunch
  go to work
  come home and do my chores
  go back and get the girls and have a sensible dinner
  maybe take a walk while the weather is still nice after dinner as a family..